today wasn’t too bad, but i feel very…unsatisfied. nothing feels right. a few nights ago, i felt completely sated, so i guess this is the balance. …i still kind of feel like i’m leaking out of myself.
i’ve been really sleep-deprived for the past few days, so today was really odd. during psych, i felt like i was turning into liquid and could feel my pulse pounding though my neck. it seemed like i was already a puddle on the floor, but why did i still have a pulse?
we talked about euthanasia in my CORE class today&watched the video that kevorkian submitted to encourage his own arrest. the death was not violent or disturbing (visually…maybe it disturbed some conceptually). when the professor asked people if they had any stance on the issue, a girl was crying&trying to justify her position against it. i don’t mind if you cry during a...
last night (actually this morning around 3am), i was walking back from rebecca’s dorm. when i got outside, i felt the raindrops&thought “oh, great. i get to walk through dead worms on a wet sidewalk in flipflops&draggy pants.” as i walked, i realized it WAS great. with the wind blowing, the odour from the spring blossoms wafted around. even though it was dark&dreary,...
tugr:My latest song… If you like what you hear and...
Tonight I will learn to love you twice.– Anne Sexton
realization of the night:
I think people live for those moments when they’re vulnerable in front of the ones they love, expecting abuse, and instead experience intimacy.
this place makes it impossible to forget you.
An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of...– Harold Lokes
something happened, and i really wish i could talk to you about it, to seek advice. in this matter, i would unquestionably trust your opinion. you know me so very well, and you know how to maneuver through socially tricky situations. &we’re good with awkward. we’ve mastered awkward (along with caring too much&slowly exposing our violent hearts ‘til the honesty is...
it is late, my roommate is snoring, and my heart lies on a page. i am so tired, but i have so many suppressed emotions that need to run their course though my heart and mind. my vision isn’t even clear at the moment (no drugs are involved…i pinkyswear. i don’t do drugs. ever.), but i know i still have more to feel, to think. my emotions still need to take hold of me while i am...
everythingbonestv asked: Hi there! Oh gosh, thank you for the messages you're sending to my Tumblr on the thoughts on B&B and the 100th episode! They're really interesting to read and all your points there are something I clearly agree on! Just wanted to let you know, i'll post them tomorrow instead because I've posted too many tonight! So I hope you don't mind the wait! :) But definitely...
Tonight is a night for tears. Because there was so much material on tumblr about the 100th episode of Bones, I decided to finally watch it. I cried, and because I started a sad mood, I decided to watch the last episode of btvs, season 3. The part that most affects me is when everybody takes off their graduation robes and reveals their weapons and intention to fight. The relationship...
a lack of colour
and when I see you I really see you upside down but my brain knows better it picks you up and turns you around turns you around, turns you around if you feel discouraged when there’s a lack of color here please don’t worry lover it’s really bursting at the seams from absorbing everything the spectrums a to z this is fact not fiction for the first time in years and...
This head is wreaking havoc on my heart.
Bodies&hearts are made for loving. The head is the only obstacle to intimacy.
Owl City- Hello Seattle (remix)
These are a Few of my Favourite Things
(in no particular order) [life | water | air | love | music | literature | film | theatre | history | science | languages | knowledge | psychology | the five senses | swimming | tennis | food | humanity | family | friends | cheese | chocolate | lemon | basil | raspberry | blackberry | chocolate mousse | chocolate ganache | gelato | tumblr | death note | &a myriad of other things]
They wanted to speak, but could not; tears stood in their eyes. They were both...– Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment, Epilogue (via estherthanthou)
Anberlin- Enjoy the Silence (cover of Depeche...
pretty faces (in no particular order)
GUYS 1. billy crudup 2. emile hirsch 3. mark ruffalo 4. ethan hawke 5. noah wyle 6. ryan reynolds DOLLS 1. lily allen 2. katy perry 3. scarlett johansson 4. natalie portman 5. jennifer garner 6. rihanna 7. jessica alba 8. marion cotillard 9. michaela conlin
I love plot twists (and secretly procrastination). Today was a good day! :D I can’t wait to continue reading (though not what I’m supposed to be reading). After a day full of classes, though, I feel like I deserve some time to relax. …My mind is still divided. Until I decide, I suppose the best thing to do is…nothing. Should haves are easier for me to live with than...
A man who stands for nothing will fall for anything.– Malcolm X
Weird Winds Ablowin'
random ppl tlking to me at random times about random things…. but at very convenient&strange times… life is so odd! maybe this is just another obstacle? i have no idea…. …and i still need to do my hw. oh, college. i am a masterful procrastinator. i was trying so hard not to be. ppl (as well as my own mind) constantly keep me guessing, though. or intrigued. &in...
1901 by Phoenix →
Counting all different ideas drifting away Past and present they don’t matter Now the future’s sorted out Watch her moving in elliptical patterns Think it’s not what you say What you say is way too complicated For a minute thought I couldn’t tell how to fall out It’s twenty seconds till the last call You’re going hey hey hey hey hey hey Lie down you know it’s easy Like we did it...
To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift.– Steve Prefontaine
The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it.– Flannery O’Connor
224 Word Palindromic Poem
“Dammit I’m Mad” by Demetri Martin Dammit I’m mad. Evil is a deed as I live. God, am I reviled? I rise, my bed on a sun, I melt. To be not one man emanating is sad. I piss. Alas, it is so late. Who stops to help? Man, it is hot. I’m in it. I tell. I am not a devil. I level “Mad Dog”. Ah, say burning is, as a deified gulp, In my halo of a mired rum tin. I erase many men....
There is a curious paradox which no one can explain. Who understands the...– El Gallo [from “The Fantasticks”]
Procrastination, or another night of contemplation
Once again, I saved my homework ‘til the last minute and once again, I found myself procrastinating. Eventually, conversations started, and by one o’clock, I was searching for another distraction. TheRumpus provided me with nearly three hours of reading material and food for thought. Tonight I have contemplated: 1. relationships (more on that later, though) 2. sex (again, more to...
White Whine →
A shout out to my suburban roots as well as a reminder of how spoiled I am.
Science, curiosities, and a leakage of geekage
Look At This Fucking Hipster →
A site that mocks the glorification of hipsters. Note: I’m not against hipsters, but the site is amusing.
The Rumpus →
random&sometimes thoughtful reflections on life, love, and sex some people may find a few articles inappropriate, but you have to remember that they are written from experience. sharing your own life should not be “inappropriate.”